I swear I’m ready to let this go



“I swear I’m ready to let this go,” (by the old gods and the new, LOL)

I had repeated this several times in my head the last few weeks that I was here. So when it was time to leave, I did as quickly as I can.

“Nah! No time for tears, I’ll be back anyway” (for exit interview. LOL) But as I was moving on, I find myself looking back. This is a great place I am deserting, I am happy here.

“But it’s time to fly.”

I went back as I must. It was the same place as I left it, same vibe, same scent, the familiarity haunted me. But one thing was different.

“I do not belong here anymore..”

I couldn’t fight back my tears. For the first time in a long while, I felt alone beyond solace. I didn’t understand why it felt as if a part of me was disintegrated.

“Perhaps it was the comfort, the warmth of what is known and secure that I was uncomfortable letting go.”

It felt as though there were little¬†fragments that was a part of me for while, left me. I went for a walk, the long waiting hours served it’s purpose. Then suddenly, an epiphany. It was as though an angel whispered a reassurance from where it’s from or fairy ¬†sprinkled some pixie dust.

“For whatever made me feel a little broken at that moment, built me. It strengthened my wings and renewed my spirit.”

Yes. I swear I am NOW ready to let this go,” (by the old gods and the new, hihi)

-The Soliloquist




Rest Day

Being with you is something I look forward to
I count days, moons and hours till we meet again
When time comes, I fill my list with things to do
But lately I procrastinate due to the little rain

Should I write a song today or just hum an old one
I think I want to swim but the water is too cold
A movie with swords or psychos will indeed be fun
Or finish off that red-covered book marked with a fold

Try riding bus after bus till I’m completely lost
Then it would be exciting finding my way back
But soon I’ll be back on placing callers on hold
Heard your nail died today so I’ll wear something black

Just a day, indeed you made me feel rested
Few moments later, I’ll be excited logging in
I said that to sound a bit more motivated
When all I’m looking forward to is when “we’ll meet again”.

-The Soliloquist

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