I swear I’m ready to let this go

 

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“I swear I’m ready to let this go,” (by the old gods and the new, LOL)

I had repeated this several times in my head the last few weeks that I was here. So when it was time to leave, I did as quickly as I can.

“Nah! No time for tears, I’ll be back anyway” (for exit interview. LOL) But as I was moving on, I find myself looking back. This is a great place I am deserting, I am happy here.

“But it’s time to fly.”

I went back as I must. It was the same place as I left it, same vibe, same scent, the familiarity haunted me. But one thing was different.

“I do not belong here anymore..”

I couldn’t fight back my tears. For the first time in a long while, I felt alone beyond solace. I didn’t understand why it felt as if a part of me was disintegrated.

“Perhaps it was the comfort, the warmth of what is known and secure that I was uncomfortable letting go.”

It felt as though there were little fragments that was a part of me for while, left me. I went for a walk, the long waiting hours served it’s purpose. Then suddenly, an epiphany. It was as though an angel whispered a reassurance from where it’s from or fairy  sprinkled some pixie dust.

“For whatever made me feel a little broken at that moment, built me. It strengthened my wings and renewed my spirit.”

Yes. I swear I am NOW ready to let this go,” (by the old gods and the new, hihi)

-The Soliloquist

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Inadequate

Sorry if I’d made you feel inadequate
That what you do isn’t enough
To make me feel I am valued
To make me believe I am loved

At times I just don’t understand
Why I envy a lot
On other people’s lives and
Beautiful stories they got

I know I’ve hurt you intensely
I broke your heart and I’m wrong
Now I’m saying I’m sorry
That I said we just don’t belong

I didn’t mean to hurt you
I didn’t knew then it was wrong
To tell you insensitive thoughts
That might have broke us apart

I have forgotten entirely
How beautiful we once were
How I want to turn back time
If I could I’d say “as you were”

But what’s done has been done
The damage is beyond repair now
I only wish your pain will be gone
I’ll take with me the ache with a bow

-The Soliloquist

 

(Wrote this years ago, it’s downer so I had second thoughts publishing it. But nah for safekeeping.)

How To Find One True Love: A Book Review

Definitely glad someone shared to me this book by Bo Sanchez . The humor and truthfulness of this book made me hungry of what the next concept entails. Novels made me fall in love, cry and nervous. This book made me laugh out loud like crazy yet it gave me so much wisdom on how to find a good mate. Reading this book made me realize so many things, about myself, my preferences and what I ought to be. Not that I didn’t know how to be me, it just made me realize how essential it is to be your best self.

There are a lot of things in this book that I agree on and made me feel that my beliefs and thoughts are correct. Among others are not believing and asking for silly external signs and not falling for not well-thought romantic letters that includes mushy lines such as “you are my other half”, or “you complete me.” Urgh. I will admit, I am a hopeless romantic. I love to say I love you and I am happy I have you in my life but I would not want to hear someone say they are incomplete without me. More of these thoughts on my other post entitled “You Complete Me” and “Give Me A Sign: If stars twinkle tonight, I will marry you.”

There are also a lot of concepts in this book that made me stop, think and re-read. Shocking notions that made me say, “Damn. This is me” and on countless times nod and declare “I should do this.”

It is a funny, direct and short that it would not require a bookworm to finish this book. The words Bo used in this book are simple and understandable. It is good for singles for all ages, either ready for a new relationship or not yet. This is also good for couples in romantic relationships who are open-minded. People who are lost in the trance of magic love spells might not be able to grasp the idea behind this book. Married individuals might also find this useful. Especially those individuals those strive to improve their relationships and selves.

As simple as the concepts presented in this book may have seemed, it is not that easy to follow it as well. It takes a lot of adjustment, like being attractive when you are not just used of dressing up or wearing make up or perhaps going out on dates or talking to new people. It is always easier to know than to do. Anyway, anything worthwhile is never easy. We are talking about Finding One True Love.

I quote some of my favorite lines from this book.

“True love begins the moment we fall out of love.”

“People don’t get what they deserve. People get what they think they deserve.”

(Saw this draft from June 2013, and I’m posting in anyway. Will be posting old unpublished works soon and hoping to finish new pieces. Thanks for dropping by.)

-The Soliloquist

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