I swear I’m ready to let this go

 

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“I swear I’m ready to let this go,” (by the old gods and the new, LOL)

I had repeated this several times in my head the last few weeks that I was here. So when it was time to leave, I did as quickly as I can.

“Nah! No time for tears, I’ll be back anyway” (for exit interview. LOL) But as I was moving on, I find myself looking back. This is a great place I am deserting, I am happy here.

“But it’s time to fly.”

I went back as I must. It was the same place as I left it, same vibe, same scent, the familiarity haunted me. But one thing was different.

“I do not belong here anymore..”

I couldn’t fight back my tears. For the first time in a long while, I felt alone beyond solace. I didn’t understand why it felt as if a part of me was disintegrated.

“Perhaps it was the comfort, the warmth of what is known and secure that I was uncomfortable letting go.”

It felt as though there were little¬†fragments that was a part of me for while, left me. I went for a walk, the long waiting hours served it’s purpose. Then suddenly, an epiphany. It was as though an angel whispered a reassurance from where it’s from or fairy ¬†sprinkled some pixie dust.

“For whatever made me feel a little broken at that moment, built me. It strengthened my wings and renewed my spirit.”

Yes. I swear I am NOW ready to let this go,” (by the old gods and the new, hihi)

-The Soliloquist

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Say “Thank You”

Say “thank you..”

For the mornings that are reminders of a chance for new beginnings, that change is directly proportional to progress, that there are pending risks worth taking, that love unexpressed can be shown today.

Thank yourself..

For being awesome up to this day, for standing up for what you believe in, for forgiving, for loving unconditionally. Thank yourself for being wrong, now you know how to make things right. Thank yourself for all the failures, that only means you are brave enough to try. Thank yourself for being you, no one else can do it better. Thank, you.

Thank God..

For the nth time, do so. For the plans He has for you is better than what you have for yourself. For sending the sun his way. For the courage to welcome change. For everyone who loves you, who believes in you and encourages and inspires you to be the best of yourself. For the chance to show them how you love them back. And for the mornings.. That are reminders of a chance for new beginnings.

-The Soliloquist

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